This I believe I will try to conquer my fears. I have the fear of
water. I hate being around large areas of water. When I first started driving, I
would keep a life jacket in my front seat for those times I went over a bridge
and it collapsed and I would almost drown. That never happened. But what if. I can’t
swim. I can’t float. I can’t open my eyes under water and I can’t hold my
breath for more than 5 seconds! I get panic attacks when the water get up to my
ribs in a pool. I am terrified of lakes. Probably because of that movie
Lakehouse. Where that guy murdered people and made an underwater area where the
people were posing. He would go and visit their corpses. I don’t want to end up
like that. I hate lakes because of the dirt, fish, snakes, frogs, alligators,
and feces in it. I don’t want to swim with fish poop. That is nasty. I feel
like I have to bleach my skin if I went to a lake. I have been on a boat once. This
boat was the size of a couch and I kept tightening my lifejacket so tight. It was
not coming off. I felt so nauseous any time that boat would rock. Never again! The
fear of tipping over. Drowning. Possibly drowning. With fish poop water in my throat.
Imagine the diseases I could get from fish poop water. I might die. I definitely
don’t want someone to give me CPR. What if they had cold sores and it got
transmitted to me. I have never had one and I don’t intend to get them through CPR.
I avoid lakes so I don’t have to deal with this ongoing fear. It is paralyzing
when I get to a lake. I feel like there is no escape. What if I came across a floater?
Some bloated dead body that had been in the water for a long time. That smell. Those
nasty eyes. That wrinkly water raisin skin. I would have nightmares for life. What
is my nightmares turned into night terrors? I can’t deal with that. Do they
ever scrape the bottom of the lake to make sure there are no dead bodies there?
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